Risk Taker

If you want something, go after it.

I wanted something, took a risk, and while it didn't backfire, I didn't get what I asked for and now I don't know how I feel. I'm not gonna lie, I like her. But she gave me this "open for interpretation" response when I asked if she wanted to gab a bite to eat after we play basketball this coming Friday. She said that's the kind of thing she tries not to do alone with a guy... The dot dot dot really threw me. I should mention this whole conversation was done over text messaging. Not really chivalrous I know, but it's the only we way communicate since we never see each other and she doesn't live near campus.

We've tried to play basketball together numerous times but things keep coming up for her and she keeps canceling on me. So now we're settled for Friday to play. This will most likely be the last time I see her before I go home for the summer. I'm bummed about that. Even if she doesn't want to be alone with me for a bite to eat, I still like hanging with her and am not gonna get discouraged. Got all next year to make her see that I'm the safest guy on the planet.

Probably to a fault too. This goes back to what I was writing about earlier and how I don't know how to advance things. In this case, I took a shot with the whole grabbing a bite to eat thing, which I'm assuming is a tactic to "advance" things and that didn't work out.

I honestly wanted to say something like, "How bout we play some ball and then the loser of HORSE has to buy the winner a sports drink?" I was seriously considering writing that instead of grabbing a bite to eat because it comes off as way less threatening and very casual. But the big problem is that she will surely lose. Although maybe she's confident enough to think she can win. She is on record of saying she's going to beat me eventually. She's 0-2 so far and got HORS on me the second time but I was trying some ridiculous crazy shots and wasn't making any of them which allowed her to make some shots that I missed. If I just shoot basic jump shots from anywhere within 20 feet, the game will be over pretty quickly. And of course, that's the last thing I want.

She's not bad. She played for her high school and I looked at some of the box scores and she was by far averaging the most points for her team. Now there's something tricky. Do I tell her I looked up her box scores on my own time? Actually I came across it by googling her name which is probably creepy sounding. I do it because I want to learn stuff about her. The problem is, I can't mention to her what I did. That won't get me anywhere, probably just push her away. Which is definitely what I don't want since we're probably gonna be playing softball on a coed team next year just like we did this year.

I'll just wait till Friday, when I'm done with my finals, to relax and have fun playing basketball. Keep it as casual as possible. Don't over think it. Just like the first time. Be so involved with trying to come up with crazy trick shots, that I didn't have time to over analyze questions and answers.

And whatever you do, don't bring up anything from the conversation you had earlier tonight. It's in the past...move on!